i.undress.my.mind.and.dare.you.to.follow
so take me, take me away with you
Thursday, July 31, 2008
done by dblhelix :D this post is dedicated to you. thanks for being my 24/7 IT help desk on demand. you've been a great mentor/guru and all i can say is you have the world's best protege. :]
dreamt.of.you.at2:01 AM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
when it's one pill on day 1 it only means day 2 will be the same, crammy and pill 2. but at least i have a good excuse to stay in bed and catch up on the hills season two! omg..the drama is DRAMA!...quite over the top but how i wish i was living their lives. working at teen vogue would be amazing. and i so agree with what lauren said that there'll always be this guy you will keep going back to..well..what more can i say. sometimes you know things won't work out or aren't in favor between two people but you just keep going round and round. welcome to the merry go round. and i seem to have got a free pass for it. will this be my last ride? or could it be like what carrie bradshaw said about either being addicted to the pain and misery of such r/s or just wanting to attain the unattainable. hmmm..on a completely different note, i've decided to change my room walls to grey, all except the mural. and that means new addition to my list! hur~
p/s: i think this will be my fourth time i'm changing the wall paint in erm..13 years living here? not so bad rite.. call me experimental, indecisive, unsatisfied or nothing better to do if you want. :{
oh why am i born with ovaries. so that i can "look forward" to this day of the month and shelf all plans aside just to lie in bed in fetal position, back aching, womb churning and cramping up to a rhythm , silently crying out for some one to discover me in pain and hand me some panadols and a hot pack? omgosh, it sux! i rather do 1 year 10 months of outfield physical training than suffer for 30 or 40 years till menopause comes knocking on my door. imagine this day, times 12 months, times ~34 years?and all the embarrassments like staining your sheets,uniforms,clothes..haha..so far i've been rather lucky but i do remember helping gfs' buy impromptu pads or new shorts and the funny invigilation thingy some of you might already know. hai.. at least i should be grateful today. it's just 1 pill instead of the many.
well,my friend also said i should be grateful for ovaries if not i wouldn't have discovered online shopping, more online shopping and more online shopping. hmm kinda true huh.
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had lunch at huang jia yesterday to celebrate mum's half-a-century-old birthday. hah..but she was in such a hurry for her endless appointments that we didn't get to take a family picture and cut the cake..btw she finally agreed with me that the food there sux!! i loveee tung lok signatures peking duck.wish i could have the skin as a snack all day long. would that fatten me up or kill me first?
dreamt.of.you.at7:13 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
argh..why is everyone so busy. that's why i hate planning. but now i have even more research and planning to do and no one seems available to help. perhaps this is part of growing up. but i also hate to wait for things! why can't i just walk in and get what i want, or even snap my fingers and *poof it magically appears or someone to do it for me.
being number one procrastinator and with one more week to go. i'm frantically trying to clear off my "list of things to do during the hols" but my list seems to be growing at every minute. am i being a foc personal assistant to my parents and friends (mainly the former)? "lydia, call the acer svc center find out about this and that. call up to find out price of samsung tv. go check the dimensions of this model and that. go check coe prices. go calculate the loan on an interest of two point something, go find out. go and make lunch reservations. can you redo the logo, remove the eyes and eyebrows, edit this and that, print this and that, give me this website, make gym appts and get cancelled on, organise outings and here busy there busy......" ARGHHHHHH!!!!!
never ending orders. i'm frustrated cos they add things to my list!!
i have lists for everyday things to do which turns into every week actually, list of cafes/places to check out, list of activities to do, list of things to buy/desire, list of things i've bought, list of clothes to sell/rid, list of how much i've spent per day/mth/owe/owed, list of topics to study, list of things to bring for gym/tanning/sleepovers/trips and even a list of internet websites to check out.
OMG..is this normal? that is why i so need an organiser. and a nice one too :P
the things i've accomplished/done this hol:
i banking account
livejournal account
blogged
learnt a lil photoshop and flash
once-in-many-years facial. (don't have guts to go actually, it's torturous)
haircut+dye
sterilized the cats
spree-d
mani+pedi
changed my nets card!! (one of the longest resident on my list)
random things to buy more or less done with
framed up picture
uploaded photos (halfway)
completed "they kissed again" tw drama
baked NY/dbl choc/strawberry cheesecakes
bladin
vpost
completed the hills season 3
things i've yet to do:
wisdom teeth
optomologist (study too much la)
paint room (almost done!)
complete SATC 4 seasons
change hp
change car
dad's logo
take pics of things to sell in Lj account
my gosselins book!!
prawning
ubin cycling
doctor fish therapy
kelong
bake blueberry and oreo chesecakes
draw sth to frame
pierce ears
collect free samsung tv
damn, i forsee this will drag into school term and even the next hols..oh well..
btw astons speciality has finally opened in town! it used to be at east coast and pgp for what i know and trying to organize dinner at astons in the east for ntu ppl is almost impossible so let's check out the cathay one someday okie? yummy ribs...
dreamt.of.you.at1:22 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
i'm obsessed with buying all sorts of stationary. i'm very contented to lug home gift wrappers, notebooks, mechanical pencils, erasers, files, organisers, paper clips, letter pads,lil knick knacks and STICKERS (do you still have your sticker book?we can do trading! hahaha) from abroad/ local shopping trips. i can spend damn long browsing the stationary section in bookshops, and i never feel guilty about splurging on "sth-i might-use-in-future". and when you look back at them, it brings back memories like which country did i get it from, who was i with, or even who helped me to decide on it!! hurhur
some people might frown upon spending on unnecessary stationaries, like those with one mechanical pencil , one pencil case to last you a donkey years. but to me there's never enough and almost no amount is too much, as long as i like it :)
though school's about to start, i've yet to find a pencil case! but at least i've stocked up on my files, organisers, notebooks, water bottles still good, clothes never enough, shoes done for now, bags never enough, jackets not yet ( i need more!) i feel so primary school, new year must have new stuff.. heh..perhaps just an excuse for me to shop!
btw woodwould's my all time fave stationary shop! done with that today,waiting for new stocks. muji, borders done. shit, i forgot about prints/bookbinders. did i miss out anything else?
anyone can buy me woodwould? i'll marry you :D
dreamt.of.you.at11:58 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
omgosh.. before i forget.. christopher lee's house in the 9pm house damn nice can.. anyone knows what kinda house is that? i didn't get a good look at it.. like some kinda penthouse? omgosh.. it's like the ideal bachelor's pad, just lacking a lap pool, or who knows it hasn't been featured yet.
dammit hutt just told me it's the sentosa cove!! argh!!
just a lil update.
went blading last night with adriel at ecp. finally someone who can blade with me.. heh.. and we went to hunt for the newly relocated yong he dou hua.
went to test drive terios today. hai.. it's quite good, except for its brand and it being 4WD. why wont toyota bring in rush 4? why must it be the PI (parallel importers)? hard to trust them and find a credible one le.. what about servicing? hope everything works out anyway. i cant wait to get rid of the current petrol guzzler and drive to school without feeling so guilty about petrol consumption. fingers crossed man.
and why is there throbbing pain being my orbitals? is it headache? my eyesight? migraine? what the hell is it? sux man, when you're getting old, here pain there pain..hahaha
dreamt.of.you.at10:59 PM
IN LOVING MEMORY OF JOE AND MARLEY
joe tucking into his big ass bone from grandfather
injured joe swimming in the sea
family camp
timothy and i when we first brought him home.
joe at obedience training school and hideous me.
joe as a pup
checking out or rather plotting how to destroy the new grass which he did succeed after years of digging and peeing.
being a natural swimmer and that's the inflatable boat we had!
anyone who wants to get a dog (in particular labrador retrievers or any pet actually) should read MARLEY ANE ME by john grogan. it's such a heartwarming and moving read that will touch your heart about life and love with the world's worst dog. marley turned out to be not the very ideal lab one would dream of. but his unwavering loyalty and selflessness makes up for it.
"marley quickly grew into an uncontrollable ninety-seven pound steamroller of a labrador retriever. expelled from obedience school, even the tranquilisers prescribed by the vet couldn't stop him. yet through the chaos and hilarity he won hearts and remained a steadfast model of devotion to his family, even when they were at their wits' end. unconditional love, they would learn, comes in many forms."
1st october 1995 was double happiness day. not only was it children's day= holiday! but it was the day we bought our first dog, a labrador retriever called joe tan. he was almost every bit like marley, uncontrollable, full of energy like the energizer bunny, insatiable hunger, endless mischiefs, number one escapee etc. i recall the million times we had to prowl the streets when someone left the gate opened, the posters we had to put up, the disappointment when he failed obedience school twice, the times when we had to dig into his mouth to retrieve plastic bags and what not. he practically devoured anything quite edible, be it offerings to the god by the road or scraps he chanced upon on his walks, takeaway food i was holding in the PLASTIC BAG.
everything went in, including how he destroyed my forever friends bear and i got so pissed my dad bought me a few more. my first havianas, socks, shoes, basically anything that he could grab with his mouth and run away. haha..no wonder he had the most canes in the house.
though no where near those show pedigree dogs, he still had his fair share of fans, especially my grandfather and mother. my grand father used to bring bones from soup just for him and that would make he super exhilarated. the time when we had a family camping trip and he was attacked by a stray dog. my dad even twisted the broom from chasing off the assailant, as it wouldn't let go of joe. even though he was bitten and bleeding from the neck, he didn't give a hoot about it and continued his own biz of sniffing the area out and swimming in the sea.
then his health started to spiral downwards. he turned blind and had cancer.(how ironic is it when labs are usually the choice to lead the blind) nevertheless he remained positive and full of spirit, and his inclination for food never dwindled a single bit. he went through several minor operations to deter the cancer's growth but was advised against full surgery due to his age.
then the day came. the day before my biophysical chemistry paper (my worse subject, it's literally physics). he was weaker than usual and retching. i remembered telling him to hang on before i left for school. my parents wanted to keep him at home by their side and wait-and-see but his condition had worsened hence while at school, they called to say they were bringing him in (to the vet). then we received the call from the vet that night. the very dreaded call to say he retched and collapsed. just like that. gone. no one by his side during his final moments. all he had was the cold metal cage. sigh. we rushed down and mourned and arranged for a private cremation. at least that's the best parting gift he deserved.
till this day i regret why weren't anyone of us by his side. my mother was devastated. i think no other dog can replace joe's silly antics in her heart. and therefore we haven't got another dog.
having experienced the whole cycle of life and death, all i would say is please think a gazillion times before about buying a dog. as cliche as it sounds like but it's really a lifetime commitment. it aint like buying a fish or hamster with a short life span. this is the whole package. so don't make any rash decision to shell out money for that cute doggy by the window.
p/s: i think he blessed me with a B- for my paper :) i thought i would fail my paper since it was physics and moreover i didn't have mood to study. well at least he's got his eyesight and health back now in doggy heaven! i bet he's having a sumptuous buffet now.
dreamt.of.you.at7:49 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
DIG AND DIG!!!
This is my unofficial alarm clock everyday for the past 7 mths or so. "rings" at 7am and never stops till lunch at 12 noon and ends at 7pm. 12 hours a day, 6 days a week (sunday light work only). freaking annoying. all the dust, in conveniences (have to park our cars elsewhere if not keep reversing for them to drive in their lorries and trucks), NOISEEEEE!!, and the way my house has cracked up due to the vibrations and endless pounding (even the main gate and door can't lock, garden's ground is tilting/slanting downwards and not to mention the five thousand cracks in my walls/floors. but at least they are compensating us with new flooring/ garden i think)
i just pray for rain everyday, more so during my exams. and even now during the holidays so i can sleep in. it's like like 1.5 meters from my room window, in other words right outside my house since we're at the corner.
the government just likes to dig, build, un-dig, build etc.. is there anywhere construction - free?around my area, major works like the one right outside my house, circle line mrt, woodsville interchange etc are concurrently ongoing. how naive am i to think i would escape all those hdb upgrading nonsense by staying here.
btw they've decided to cover up the long kang to make it into a connector cum park or sth so that people can commute thru here to the upcoming circle line. there goes the long kang i used to play fire and scale up and down. the once secluded ulu corner terrace has lost its privacy. i forsee the bengs n lians hanging out here making a din or lighting up illegally, the banglas having their picnics, the neighbourhood aunties gossiping, in other words, MORE PEOPLE = NO PRIVACY. people are gonna surpass my house, will they scratch the cars?do we have to park elsewhere? will they peep in?will they throw rubbish in? (i used to worry that someone might bribe joe with poison laced food so as to shut him up permanently) time to get a lock for the main gate and raise the gate and walls surrounding the house. time to built a FORTRESS!!!
my area used to be so ulu, at one point i was even afraid to return home. all thanks to my brother's gf who mentioned she saw a black man stepping out of the shrubs from the long kang. even nowadays at night, i wonder if anyone would pounce on me when i go out to call silly einstein home. would there be someone hiding behind the car, waiting to rob me at knife pt and hijack the car? hence i have developed the habit of locking the car doors immediately.
and i wasn't the only one to find it ulu. since my house faces the hdb flats and industrial factories, i've seen banglas and old men peeing at the corner of the void deck, lovers making out and gurka teens fooling around.
well, living in sucha ulu place has its good and bad. i know i will definitely miss the quietness (b4 the construction began) and my paranoia thoughts.
lomo fish eye pictures fresh from the oven. what they should look like with better lighting. taken by my bro.
money money money, makes the world go round...
mich's and hutt's birthdays at hanabi
jc gathering at indulgz bistro
bowling after.. i hate the long kang!!
dreamt.of.you.at3:00 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
THE CAT WOMAN
somehow i do not want to be labeled as one neither do i wanna become one. to me, cat women in singapore are stigmatized as "single, lonely, old, cranky, eccentric, overly obsessed with cats' well-being and with loads of money to treat/feed/sterilize/re-home stray cats" or rather rarely, the"rich, retired, with normal personalities". as far as i know, neither does my mother want to be associated with it. she once said: " when you leave home, i'll be stuck with 4 cats and morph into the cat woman" well, about time i introduce my cats. 4's the magic number. used to think the more the merrier however i find these rascals such a handful i don't know how the gosselins do it. btw, no family photo of them, almost impossible to make them pose nicely for me and with each other.
FIRST BORN: NORA TAN
age: ~10yrs old
type and sex: calico cat/tri coloured female
physique: pudgy, short limbs, oreo stain near mouth
history: adopted from spca by my youngest brother (i wasn't fond of cats then, didn't even go along to pick the cat. if i had gone, wouldn't end up with such a neurotic and extremely shy cat) turned out to be my cat now, since she's abit uncomfortable around my brother and the rest of the family. (he used to taunt her in the past)
personality:shy is an understatement.rather clingy,has to be within 1/2 meter radius from me. pretty diva-ish. (when she wants to eat/drink/poop or pee she will get her way, even if it's at 4 in the morning. her tactic: simple.sit beside my ear n meow non stop.i get so annoyed when she makes me open n close the door 6,7 times a night.)
talents: my personal pest buster and security guard
pet peeves: doesn't like to be cuddled, in fact ive yet to get a cat which does. hates bathing.
favourite toys: cattyman, furry rats, anything that rolls. strings,lizards
favourite food: anything but her own k/d food (has raised creatinine lvl hence on special diet), poultry,fish occasionally.
meet-n-greeet: doesn't cope well with strangers. approximate time for strangers to get to see/pat her= 2-7 yrs as proven by my visitors. most of the time, nothing or at most a glimpse of her running to hide, hence i tell ppl "okay here she comes, DON'T BLINK!
SECOND : EINSTEIN TAN
age: 1.5 yrs old
type and sex: tabby male
physique: lean, abit too skinny! looooooooooong tail (makes up for the other 3 bob tails)
history: few months after my labrador retriever joe died, kitty eins found his way into my compound. so we joke that he's a reincarnation of joe, just smarter and smaller size. he had very wierd static fur when he was a kitten, hence the name.
personality: used to be really sweet and homely, but now maybe cos of his teenage hormones, he wants to be out of the house as much as possible.treats home like hotel, comes home to poop/pee/eat/sleep sometimes. territorial. gentleman at times. a lil shy, only heads out to roam when the construction workers are gone. smartest of the lot, can be called to return home. most good looking with purrfect tail.
talents: hunter, pest buster,scale fences, escaping
pet peeves: very grouchy when he's locked in the house and bugged by the other kittens.
favourite toys: same as nora.
favourite food: nora's k/d food, poultry, fussycat can food, durian
meet-n-greet: needs some time to warm up.
to be continued....
dreamt.of.you.at3:17 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
two more weeks to the start of dreadful year three semester one, the one that seniors have warned us of how insane it will be. how i wish i could "siam" this semester. and to only have my holiday trips (australia and paris/frankfurt if all goes well!!!) AFTER the end of the semester or IN BETWEEN the semester is just so comforting to know. in other words i have to SURVIVE in order to go on a holiday. and i don't deal well with anticipation.
oh ya, heard dad's shop got mentioned online.
ps:first link's signboard wasn't done by me, it would have been nicer if it was by me. heh.
darn, no ham-some doctors at cgh today, everything that i desire for in the second half of my life depends on how "loaded" my other half is..hah..joking la..aside from that, the only thing that makes me a lil keen on the new semester is having to take the module cancer biology :D
dreamt.of.you.at7:03 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
morning! as usual, sunday mornings are spent having breakfast with dad at 8am. sigh~ i try to attend as many of these breakfasts as possible since that is the only meal we have together, as a family. after which it's followed by another hearty meal at noon at gram's place. i hardly even have sufficient time to digest my breakfast and there i am having to eat again. hah. today we'll be catching a movie as a FAMILY (though one bro's missing. i can't even remember when was the last time we caught a show together. perhaps a decade ago, some jackie chan movie my dad would watch, and i am quite sure the cinema has ceased operation,robertson quay vicinity) mum suggested watching red cliff, which obviously doesn't thrill me a bit. not only is it the violence and fighting that goes on and on and innocent horses getting hurt, heard it's LOTR kind and what more it's in chinese. hai..
hmm,had difficulty sleeping last night cause of my loooong cat nap (1.45hrs). was thinking of mismatch couples and what comes to your mind when you see them. for example:
handsome guy + ugly/not-so-fantastic looking gal = he's using her as a "stepping stone" or the guy "pak stamp"
pretty gal + ugly/not-so-fantastic looking guy = he MUST BE RICH or he got lucky
skinny guy + roly-poly gal = he likes fats but can't grow/have it (very rare sightings but i find it really intriguing when i see one, it just shows how blind love is)
skinny gal + fat boy = equation balanced
young boy + older women = toy boy or mummy's boy
young gal + older men = INHERITANCE
lesbian couples = wasted talent la (some lesbian gals are actually pwetty!)
local gal in shrink wrapped tight skimpy clothing + ang mo = sarong party gal
banglas holding hands = yikes, well at least it keeps their hands off gals (aka molest)
haha..don't you agree with my analysis? or perhaps i am just being judgmental and shallow. whatever it is, an example of perfect couple is joe cheng and ariel lin in my favourite taiwanese drama : it started with a kiss and the sequel they kissed again. joe cheng's a hottie when he doesn't speak and how i wish i was acting ariel lin's role!!!! sigh.. watching it always transform me into this surreal fantasy like world. hope there's sequel 3 since it's one of the highest rated taiwanese dramas there, catch it if you haven't!
ps: i'm not one of those lunatic fans and neither am i one those gals who go gaga/worship their idols, i just rave about his looks only la..
hmm, something random to bitch about. can't tolerate gals with faces powered too white, it's like geisha make up but 2 notches down. are they too blinded by the powder to see the mismatch colour between their face n rest of the body?? or are their friends being kind by keeping quiet?
perhaps they should try loreal true match,as seen on television.
aside from that, i don't get it when tan and sporty guys go with snow whites,or those gals on the verge of turning transparent.. it's just so wrong on the eye, in particular my eye.. heh!
phew!done for now!
psst..photos will be up "soon" (one's better than nothing), meanwhile if you want view them from my facebook link, too many avenues to upload and that means more work for me!
hmmm..am i being delusional? i talk as if my blog's as highly patronised as down-snow(xia xue). hah..i'm xia yu
dreamt.of.you.at2:12 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
btw i actually received a card that says "lil miss fickle"..heh..argh...so damn lazy to get out,and very contented with staying in to online shop!! beats having to jostle with the crowds, and i get to be in a very unglam dress up mode, aka my pjs.
but one very big downfall from online shopping is having to make my own decisions! "which to buy?what's the material like?is the model posing in a way to hide the flare?will it be too big for me? what do i match it with?no 12, 35 or that?or all 3?argh" omg~why does it seem like an uphill task for me to be decisive and know what i want? i need you!! my walking brains to decide for me!
(the babe i always shop with, my decision maker (but not when it comes to eating, we take super long to decide so much so we joke that we should eat in first before meeting. that way can save saliva, brain cells trying to decode each other and brainstorming where to eat and moolah!) my other ocdish/paranoid half (i hate to admit it but yea,i do think of it thou i don't mention it), bask-burnt-suffer together kaki, my 24/7 toll free dial-a-vet-tech hotline, my chef on demand, my opinion-ater (is there such a word?hur), my bitchee-bitcher,etc etc hur..lame.what will i ever do if u leave me???
how strange is it that we only got close after a TP graduation trip to thailand. hmmm..guess the reason's obvious to you but for the rest, that's cause (hate to admit it again) i was one of those gals practically glued to their other halves in school. just like conjoined twins, doing everything together, but how am i to be blamed when we were from the same course? heh.. anyways glad to know you but still, i hate having to vie for your time! (stupid mt pleasant, manipulate their workers, take advantage of my friend just cause she's too nice to lash out against you all, then you continue to overload her schedule and with incompetent co-workers and demanding clients who fault her when she's innocent! hence more work work work and less time for me!!!! working there = no life!)
wow, i swear writing that paragraph made my blood pressure surge. hahah
well, in short, we just have many similarities.(come on just admit it)we want our other halves to be like cats: bo chap you, have intimacy issues, give you attitude and this makes us pine for them more! hur. in other words, BAD BOYS. but then again for me, with a tinge of "wholesome-ness". we want them to shower us with the occasional flowers n gifts but never in public. too embarrassing la, needless to say no PDA-ing too. we'll hold your hands when we like to. hah. we also hate crowds thus choose to wallow in the east or each others' places on week ends. we try to make it a point to go gym but somehow never get to it. hai..too many to say la.. as long as you and i get the connection (she wriggles her hands while i try to wriggle my stiff toes).
so is it better to find someone who loves you more or we love more? that's a hard one to crack.
dreamt.of.you.at5:02 PM
AHEM~hahahaha.. my first official entry. feels really wierd, like penning a diary but more high tech n also no longer exclusive (till i know how to tweak my settings prop.). Well, welcome to my very un-glam and un-happening life, no clubbing, meeting the big-hoohas, living the high life, gossips or one night stands (in SATC). In other words,it's just me, straight up, giving u the chance to know my inner "beauty" (it actually exists k!hur). and also a chance to write "compositions".hahaha..when was the last time u actually had to write one or even heard of that word? in addition, this blog is also just an excuse for me to trash out things la..endless complaints, my most-of-the-time-cute-but-can-be-one-of-a-hell cats n what not. so see i have warned "you people" before u read on and flame me later. you know who you are la.. "siam hoh, do not pray pray, i got my sistahood to lean on"
hmm, as you all know my level of IT expertise , this blog is actually something i am very proud of, very excited about it! yeah i know..in this era..who gives a hoot about having a blog..hmmm..guess only me, the big IT nooby :)) (though i have to admit i had some guidance,but it's still my fruit n labour!) maybe i am trying to be too techy for my good, but well, at least i am trying, so sometimes the unnecessary comments do hurt hoh! so zip it if not "kiam pah" ah (hur..my new favourite word..very unglam and ah lian-ness which i use it online only..as much as possible :p)
damn,backache la..old age..break break..to be continued!!stay tune!!
done by dblhelix :D this post is dedicated to you. thanks for being my 24/7 IT help desk on demand. you've been a great mentor/guru and all i can say is you have the world's best protege. :]
brother's farewell at tung lok signature
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